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Monday, October 27, 2008 at 12:44 AM

I would like to inform something but if it`s not your business, then just continue to read or you can just leave.

Firstly, what are friends? Friends are for me to socialise and mingle around with. Sometimes, we regard our friends like our family or even more than our family members which I think is unfair as frankly speaking, my first and main priority is my family followed by my friends. Yes, I do have bestfriends. I admit that sometimes we do have misunderstandings between us and I do feel that we are getting furthur apart. Although we are in different schools now, I believe that our friendship will remain strong or hopefully remain stronger. You know who you are. Now, Secondary Life is really a challenge for me girls. Maybe you will think that it is not a big deal but it really is. I don`t know, it feels so different. Wayy too different. Those people are not like you. I know that we have to socialise and I do but the feeling and the atmosphere is just not the same.

I tried to mingle around with my other friends but it feels awkward. Yes, in my class usually I will stick with these 3 friends of mine but now I feel that I need to be more friendly and more sociable. I don`t know why but when I`m with my other classmates, they just won`t talk to me. What? Am I not allowed to communicate with anyone except for the 3 of you? I mean, it`s obvious. Last day of school, when I did not sit with you guys, straight away you guys didn`t talk to me. What is this? When I stick with you guys, you`ll talk but otherwise you won`t. C`mon, it`s not like I will ignore you if you guys approached me but no, you did not approach me until the end of school day. You don`t have to understand me cause I know you guys don`t.

To these 2 friends of mine, I know you have a crush in our school. I`m not saying that I don`t like it. Don`t get the wrong idea. Yes, I`m happy that you girls have a crush. I heard you girls praising and comment about your crushes. I don`t mind at all but I do mind if I asked "What are you two talking about?" and you replied "Nothing." Nothing? Hah! You called it "nothing" when I saw you girls were giggling about some stuffs and you made me totally blanked out. I felt not updated and I guess I don`t even know a single thing about you girls. I know I don`t have a crush in our school but that does not mean I`m not allowed to join in your "crush" story. When I asked what you 2 were talking about, you told your other friend not to tell me. What is this? If you do not want to tell me, then just don`t tell your friend about your crush in front of me. About the Geog thingy, I admit that I`m childish but it`s for your own good. I`m sorry if I hurt your feelings girls but this is what I wanna say and this is my blog. If you girls don`t like my attitude or don`t like to mingle around with me, then just say it.

I`m sorry but I really have to let it all out. I don`t mind if you girls are fuming angry at me but this is what I feel. You girls are different, seriously. Different from my bestfriends. I know that I can`t compare my friends with my bestfriends but you girls don`t understand me. So yeah... 2 more years and I`m out of my Secondary School. Insyaallah. Hopefully. I tried to cherish my Secondary School Life but I just can`t. Sorry.

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Tuesday, October 21, 2008 at 8:09 AM

I`m still awake and currently I`m listening to David Archuleta`s song, crush. Gosh, it`s a like a drug to me. I keep playing it over and over again. Not going to school tomorrow. Heh! Thursday will be the last day. Wow. How time flies.

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Crush? Hah! Crush for more than 2 yrs. C`mon Suhana, don`t be such an idiot. Move on. Yes, I guess Im crazy. No, I don`t think Im falling in love and NO, its not real. Yes, it`s just another stupid crush. I guess. Of course, you got me hypnotized and mesmerised. Yes, I always keep running from the truth. I know this crush ain`t going away coz it`s more than 2 yrs and still u`re nt getting away frm my stupid mind.

And tht`s why I told u I`m addicted to this song.

My dreams will blossom...


Saturday, October 18, 2008 at 12:34 AM

Oh my gawd!! I don`t believe this! Serious lah sey! It`s like... nvm. Cool Suhana. Cool. ARGH! C`mon lah eh, it`s wayy too bizarre. Can I believe them? Are they telling the truth? What the hell! See.. there are challenges in friendship. Yes, it`s a fact. Frankly speakin, I don`t have many friends. Seriously. I`m really blank right now. OMG! And this makes me miss my pri sch a lot. Bloody bullshit! I can give a second chance bt if u don`t make use of it, I don`t know what to say and i don`t even give a damn. I can really show my true colours to you if you want. Yes, I can if you make me. Most of you think that I`m a humble, girly kind of girl. I know you will think that. Well, you are wrong. I can be very kind and very gentle with you if u`re nice but I will really show u my damn true colours if u act otherwise. Right now, I am freakin confuse AND fuming angry. Kay hana, just cool down.

To Syah & Raf: We MUST meet up during the hols! I miss you all A LOT!!!!! :(

My dreams will blossom...


Tuesday, October 14, 2008 at 6:07 AM

And here I am! I`m back baybeh! Hahah! Thos freakin exams are finally over! Yeehah!! Happiest thing in my life. :D

I`m so sorry I did not blog for donkey years as I was busy preparing for EOY. :D

On the other hand, I promise I will try to update as much as possible starting today oke? Insyaallah. Hehe! And oh, Selamat Hari Raya! Although it`s quite late to wish coz it`s already 14 days of Raya. Heh! Seriously I was too busy during Raya that I did take any pictures at all. See?? :(

Ouh ouh ouh!! I cut my fringe!! -__- Frankly speakin, I hate my new fringe. Can I have my old long fringe back? ;( It`s too messy and I can`t bear with it so I just clip it all the way. Moral of the story? Think twice before you decide to have a haircut or u will end up like me. Oh well. Hmph!

And yes, maybe I will change my style. Just wait and see oke? I dunnoe, it`s either frm good to bad or frm bad to worse or frm worse to worser. Hahah! :D

yeahhh!!! I seriously cant wait for holidays!! Weee!! Although I will stay in Singapore throughout the holidays, I`m planning of something. Something that I don`t even know. Expect the unexpected. Or maybe, family members will do a last min plan of going overseas just like the June holidays and last December holidays. Heh! Hopefully..

Ouh damn! I don`t even know what to type. Lack of stories. Yes, my life is too boring. And if my life were a movie, ppl will not want to watch it as it is too draggy and damn boring. I mean, seriously.



He`s the cutest little thing I`ve seen. :)

My dreams will blossom...